Sweet Ryan

You stand there in the gap,

between your world and mine.

Eyes looking without seeing,

Ears hearing without listening,

Mouth making words without talking.

Your fingers are fluttering before your face as you sway from side to side.

I know you're in there somewhere.

You laugh and sing.

You hug and smother me with kisses,

then you're gone again.

I know you don't mean to cause me pain.

I just want you to come into my world.

I want to share it with you.

I want you to share a little

of your world with me.

What makes you laugh?

why do you cry?

I pray that the wall of Autism

will fall away some day.

Will my prayers be in vain?

Will you ever come into my world

to stay?

For now I'll treasure those little moments when you're with me,

the giggles and the hugs;

and singing of songs together.

I love you, sweet Ryan!

Sincerely,

Mommy

By Beth Ham

December, 2003

This is a poem I wrote for my autistic son, Ryan a few years ago. Please share it with others, but do leave the date & my name on it. Thank you.